2015.

Alot has happened in the time that's passed since I last wrote in this thing.

Merci.

The birth of my child being the most important.

I am so very grateful for this little tiny human. At six months old she finds a way to light up my life every single day. To surround my with the best kind of love. With agape love. OH to love from the eyes of a baby. Just imagine that- imagine the world that we would live in if everyone loved that way. Anywho, back to what I was saying, Merci is my favorite part of everyday. Her ability to learn and absorb EVERYTHING right now amazes me. It seems like everyday has learned something new. Some things I have no idea where she learned from. Recently, she started blowing spit bubbles and "raspberries". Now to a "non- mother" this may not seem like a big deal, but to parents, these small accomplishments are as if your child just won an Olympic gold medal. Its so funny to me the things I have learned to value in my short time as a mother. Often times I think back to times before my miracle baby was born and its hard to imagine doing life without her here. I mean sure we slept more, got longer showers, maybe I didn't look as much like a hobo on a daily basis, my house may have been cleaner, I may have watched more T.V., or pursued different things, but now, in this moment, I am so fulfilled. I can't think of a time in my life that I have felt like I was fulfilling my purpose more than I do now. To think that there is a little person watching my every move. Learning from me and desiring to be LIKE ME is both terrifying and so humbling to me. I could go on and on about how eternally thankful I am to God for this blessing. August 23rd, 2014 was one of the best days of my life.

Family.

Tim and I embarked on this journey as a family early in 2014 and have grown exponentially since the birth of our daughter. There is something quite profound that happens when you become parents. Something that happens deep down in the depths of your soul. Its stirs the very fibers of your being. One of the major accomplishments that has come with the birth of our child is our daily "cross" of patience and selflessness. I guess I never really understood just how selfish or impatient I could be until I had Merci. When you have child, you are suddenly thrown into a world of no longer getting to do things "on your time" no longer being spontaneous per say, unless you call changing clothes at 3 am because your baby has vomited all over you spontaneous lol. Back to what I was saying, I have to pick up my cross of selflessness and patience daily.  No only is this important for my relationship with my daughter but also with my husband and with myself. I am learning to not be so hard on my husband. I know he is trying his best and he is learning just as I am. Now I had no doubt that Tim would be a great father but man he is totally rocking this dad thing. Merci is so blessed to have him as a father. I also have to remind myself that I am a great mother. I love my daughter more than I could ever imagine. She is the best part of my day every day, but it is quite frequently that I forget that I work really hard to be the best that I can be for her. It is quite often that I feel inadequate. Most of those times are a results of my frequent facebook timeline scrolls full of "perfect mothers and perfect families" while I am over just like yup my daughter is fed, clothed, and alive- I rocked today! I am doing better about my strict judgement of myself, but I am no where near where I would like to be. I am a good mother. I am a good mother. I am a good mother.

Health.

Upon recent discovery, there are some things with my health that are not quite as up to par as I would like them to be. I am slowly but surely working through those things and expect things to line up and an come into subjection to God's word. I know that He is the healer of all things and he makes all things new. I have no doubt that this will all work out as it is supposed to, but alas, I am human and sometimes my mind trumps my faith. So far, things have worked out great. I have gotten great reports so I imagine that this is just a small bump in the road to add to my testimony. I go to the endocrinologist this week to hear what the doctors have to say about my issue but I know what God has to say so I am not worried.



I think this is long enough for now. I hope to write in this a lot more frequently this year though I have said that in years past and not followed though so we shall see.

Until next time,
Bailee.

Some things in life simply aren't about you

If I have learned nothing else in my life, I have learned that some things.. some occurrences in life.. simply aren't about me. While this can be a hard pill to swallow (especially at times when I feel like things SHOULD be about me-selfish as that may be) I know that God is the author of my life's story. I know that God knows and sees all things and even at those times when I feel most vulnerable or out of control God is still there. God still sees my heart in things and that God will orchestrate situations the way he sees fit.. the way things are supposed to be.

At this particular moment in my life, I am humbled to God that he has allowed me to carry such a precious gift of his for the time that I have been given. It is such a joy to feel her little (or BIG) kicks and sweet little nudges or hiccups. She never fails to reassure me that she is happy and secure in my womb. I love how much I love her already. I do realize though that this moment is not about me. This moment is about her. It is about creating a family with my husband. This moment is about bringing forth a beautiful baby girl so she can fulfill her destiny. This moment is not about YOU, or YOU, or YOU. It is about her. I have learned a lot of lessons in my life time but, most importantly, I have learned that some things in life even major occurrences in my life, such as childbirth, aren't really about me at all. They happen to fulfill a bigger purpose. They happen to fulfill destiny. While it would be easy for me to be selfish during this time, I know that there is a bigger purpose at stake. I know this is about Merci and God. I pray that others get this revelation as well. Being selfish by feeling entitled are very dangerous and lonely places to be.

Friends. How many of us have them?

I woke up this morning (Yes. It is 10:32 and I DID just wake up at 10:00 and I AM completely okay with that) feeling inspired to revisit this thing. You know.. to kick back.. and stay a while. I have been thinking about returning and blogging for a few days now but have been REALLY caught up in my busy life (aka.. I've been entirely too lazy to go get Tim's computer.. sit down.. type this out.. the works.. What a REALLY interesting life I lead)

Also, Just a little side note, I will not be grammatically correct in my posts.. I refuse. I write as I think... which is really random. So if being grammatically correct bothers you.. you will probably want to exit this blog right now because I can guarantee you will get annoyed!

Anywho...lately.. one thing that has really been on my mind are friends.. or lack there of. My question to you all is WHY is it SO hard to find real friends later in life?? It's like the older you get the less likely you are to find good friends. I only bring this up because I have really been struggling with the fact that I feel like I haven't been able to connect with a friend on a level deeper than "hey, let's hang out once a month" since my freshman year of college.. which was 5 years ago.. what?! I know.. I know I'm whining but I really don't get it. Also, I see old friends grow and change.. old friends that I thought would always be friends.. but they grow and change without me and away from me. Its crazy to think back five or six years ago to the friends I thought would always be there and see how far we've grown apart.. wow!! Although, we aren't close anymore.. I still think about them regularly and embrace all the memories that were made.. some of the best memories of my life.

Okay.. now that I got that off my chest.. ill go ahead and end my ramblings for now.

B.

Writing.. well.. because its been a while.

I haven't written in this thing in years.. or at least over a year but I have been thinking about writing a lot lately. I always feel weird writing though. I. Don't. Know. Why. A lot has happened since my last post. Let me update all you lovelies on my life and all of its happenings. I'm going to try to post lots of pictures on here as well. SO go ahead and prepare yourself for picture OVERLOAD =)

 

Work

Well, In May of 2012, I graduated nursing school. I became the nurse I always dreamed to be.. a labor and delivery nurse. It is very fulfilling and EXHAUSTING all at the same time. Did I mention it was exhausting? haha Whoever said (if anyone ever said) that being a labor and delivery nurse was not actually a "real nurse" TOTALLY has never been a labor and delivery nurse. It definitely isn't about sitting around rockin babies all day, but I digress. I am absolutely in love with what I do and the patients that I encounter on a daily basis. God has allowed me to interact with some of the most precious and interesting people I have ever met. It is a beautiful thing to me to be able to play such a big role in the lives of people... I mean to be able to help bring a life into the world.. their life that they created together. WOW. What makes it all the more special is when I have patients that even months later bring their precious babies back up to the hospital for me to see! It definitely humbles me to know that even months later some of my patients think so highly of their experience that they bring their babies back to visit. God is so good!

Cruise

 

Recently,  we went on a cruise to the Caribbean. This year we went to Mahogany Bay, Belize, and Cozumel.  We also went on a cruise last year but went to Progresso and Cozumel. Both were amazing, and I feel so blessed that we got the opportunity to travel. I know that many don't have that opportunity due to financial constraints or personal issues so I definitely don't take the chances we are given lightly. We embrace our time together and soak up all the precious memories. This time around I got to swim with the dolphins, swim with sea turtles, ride fourwheelers on the beach, learn about the culture of the different islands, eat king crab straight out of the ocean, swim deep into the ocean, play with little ocean fish that let me touch them as they swam by, be hassled by the natives into by meaningless things, and plenty of other things.. but MOST IMPORTANTLY do all of this with my honey. He lights up my life in so many ways (even though we get on each others nerves more than enough ;)) Anywho, here are some pictures from our trip!

 

 

Oil Cleansing Method

Moving on to different happenings, recently I have begun experimenting with my skin. Now I know you all are probably thinking.. okay of all the things you could experiment with WHY in the world would you wanna experiment with your skin? Well to answer your burning question, experimenting with my skin is DEFINITELY not at the top of my list. I have recently ( within the last 6 months) gotten off my previous form of acne fighting superhero medicine because it gave me the WORST neck pain and migraines this side of Texas. They were awful and unbearable at times. So I decided to nip that problem in the butt and my neck pain and migraines instantly went away.. awesome right? Not so much.. I mean yes, I got rid of my monsters.. but then I was blessed abundantly with many many more monsters called pimples shortly after. So I continued my normal face cleansing method for a few months after getting off my medication only to find that my pimples were steadily increasing. I know anyone reading this is gonna be like for real? she just wasted like 5 minutes of my life talking about pimples.. LOL.. but I promise I am going to get to why I am writing this. Okay, so after my original acne fighting plan fell through, I turned to some natural forms of acne fighting.. I made this concoction of a sugar scrub which seemed to be working slightly.. but not quite good enough for my standards so NOW I am trying a method called the oil cleansing method. Basically, you clean your face with certain oils which cleans out your pores ridding them of oil, dirt, and anything else that can get into those little holes on a daily basis. I know you guys are thinking.. whattttt is she nuts? why would you put oil on your face to get rid of oil.. well apparently oil counteracts oil. So this method says. Skeptical? So I am.. but I have nothing to lose at the moment SO.. I am trying it. I will post a couple before pictures and hopefully a month or two down the road be able to post after pictures that actually so results. Here they are!

 

*disclaimer-Ive got a little makeup on in these pictures

 

 

Okay.. At this point I feel like I have rambled entirely more than anyone wants to hear in their whole lifetime.. So I will end this post and I hope to write more later.. ya know.. to get back into the whole making writing this into a habit thing.. but before I go I've got to post a few more pictures!

 

At that awkward, in between, "I wanna chop all my hair off right now stage" UGH. Trying to be strong and let it grow!

HOT day in OK.

My sweet perfect precious NEW cousin

 

 

Bye for now,

B.

 





1,1,2012-New Year- New Perspective.

Welp.. its 2012 folks. and I know even still no one reads this lol. That could possibly be the reason I lost my motivation to write in this everyday for 1 year in 2011. Whoops. besides.. I was writing either a. nonsense stuff or b. stuff that I shouldnt have been writing-didnt need to share. haha anywho.. with the start of the new year.. I come to you.. to not make a promise or a resolution of writing in this everyday but to POSSIBLY write in it more. or when I have something interesting or invigorating to share. --or something.

Lets see my new years resolution for 2012 is

WELL I dont have one lol

This year I plan to forgive more, eat less junk food, love deeper, be more compassionate, drink MORE WATER, get fit..blah blah blah- but these desires are not in resolution forms because I find that I fail at those. MOST IMPORTANTLY--TRAVEL more. Also, to be more spontaneous ;)

In 2011, I learned that talk is still cheap, true friends are HARD to come by, and life really does go on. I am happy with that. Very happy. Although, I do find myself really missing having a friend to go out with aka shop, go out to eat, watch movies together, and talk to on the phone..but I digress.

I have learned a lot about myself this year.. a lot of things that I don't like, but also a lot of things that I loved about myself that I thought I lost..but didn't. Feels nice. 

Ekk--While 2011 wasn't the worst year of my life. It wasn't the best.. I felt very stagnant for a lot of it. This year(2012) I graduate and will experience a plethora of changes in my life. I believe I am ready, although I am scared to become a big girl.. I know I have a GREAT support system backing me up.

Welp-In saying all of those things- I am trying to be LESS of a babbler as well (lol) I will leave you will a survey and a picture. Okay-I lied-I couldn't find a survey and after 4 minutes of searching I decided to give up soooo Ill leave you with a picture

Love<3

Its been forever.

I havent blogged in months.. but I thought I would give it a try again. for now. I wish I had more to say but sadly I dont.. which is the reason I stopped blogging in the first place. I felt like I just kept repeating myself because my life was super boring.. well it hasnt changed much. haha Its summer now though.. yay. Thats ALWAYS exciting.. my nurse apprenticeship for the summer ended July 15th so now I basically just sit at home all day aimlessly searching for something to do.. haha going from working 40 hours a week to nothing is sooo weird!! I am still working on my research though.. which was also supposed to be due July 15th.. yeah havent finished it yet.. it should be done sometime soon though! I just need to get the motivation to DO it! hmm other than that.. life is good. Tim and I went on an Oklahoman river cruise with Mcnair scholars program this evening.. it was nice.. we also ate at pearls crabtown.. it was delicious.. but  I think I ate toooo much spinach and artichoke dip so now my stomach HURTS. I think I made a previous blog about being allergic to spinach a LONNNNG time ago.. well I just thought I was allergic to raw spinach.. come to find out..I might be getting a little more sensitive to even cooked spinach or something because my stomach doesnt feel well. I mean im sure it could have been something else.. but i didnt really eat anything abnormal.. maybe it was some of the fruit or something.. I dont know.. ive never had a reaction to any fruit before from what I know but.. who knows! All I know is I HATE when this happens.. ugh! my stomach cramps and ahhh thats all i can think about right now.. worst feeling evaaa. Im also super bored at the moment if you couldnt tell haha.. and my computer is gonna die soon.. it doesnt hold charge at aLL anymore.. Time for a new one I think!! Anywho im bored with this.. maybe ill post again another time.

B

Ardmore. Trip.

I know its been forever since I blogged. Im sorry about that.. although no one reads this I am sure. This was a really good weekend for me.. except for the fact that I didnt get to see my husband for a couple days=( I missed him.. I feel lost when he isnt here lol because we are always together.. but anywho.. I went to Ardmore to visit my family while he was on his trip with McNair. I love being able to spend time with my family and those that are most important to me.. I also went up to the mall a couple times to visit Andrea.. I missed her too. We used to be a lot closer than we are now.. but she is still one of my really good friends. I went to Chanoa's little sister Celena's birthday party as well. Man, she is getting old! Oh how time flys.. I actually remember the day that Sandy brought her home from the hospital.. ten years ago.. wow. Things have changed so much. I also got to see Norma, her husband and Kara. It was nice to see them.. I havent seen them or some other people I used to be super close with in forever.. Its good to see where ever one is now.. I mean I am sure things could always be better.. but everyone seems to be.. surviving. I went to eat lunch with Andrea on Saturday at this new place in Ardmore called Ten Star Pizza. I kept staring at the owner because I knew I remembered him from somewhere.. well come to find out he was my english teacher in high school that moved away. Its funny how Ardmore has that way of pulling people back in.. I dont understand that.. but nonetheless.. it was a nice visit. My family is doing well... which is always a blessing. I also got to get some letters from Clifford, my old boss. I was waiting to meet him and I didnt see him.. then finally some guy walked by that looked like him only 100 POUNDS lighter!! lol I was like oh my goodness! Im proud of him! =) He is trying to be all healthy and stuff! I love success stories=) Anywho.. its super late and I need to read my Bible and go to bed.. I could say alot more though.. but I wont.

LOVE Bailee

Seeepy.

Another day. ahhh, doesnt it feel good to know that you have successfully completed another day! I love the Lord! My day was rather boring though as usual.. its very routine. bleh, but i have a GREAT testimony=) I made a 98 on my OB test!! Yahoo!! I was sooo happy when I saw the grade!! GOD is so good.. and I give him all the glory because Lord knows I shouldnt be staying up till four am to study but he works it out anyhow! So there is my testimony.. I encourage you all to have some faith! Other than that, I went to class this morning a little early to get some things in order for our class presentation! Ours was over Laryngeal cancer.. can you say boring lol.. but I think we did pretty good. After class, Ancy and I went to the computer lab to do something for OB so at least that assignment is complete! I also signed up to do my make up med surg sim tomorrow so i can get it over with.. I HATE sim.. it makes me nervous! I went to work at 12:30 and basically did nothing but run a few errands for work and take my scholarship app to howell hall! After work, Tim, Kyle, and I went to pick up a bed we bought from someone.. Its not brand new but they seem like clean people and i KNOW it will be better than our bed! So Im super excited about that! I cant wait till we get to set it up! We then got ready to go to Brittani's for Bible study which was good! I met her roommate she is a sweetie! =) Now I am really tired.. but thats the synapsis for my day! I hope you enjoyed=))))

Love B.

official valentines day!

Well well well.. we meet again.. sorry Im a slacker.. Sunday Night I was studying for a test from like 9 till 4 am so I didnt really get a chance to blog.. I think thats a pretty good reason though. I am sOO tired. I need rest.. and I signed up to make up for med surg sim tomorrow but thats not THAT big of a deal because I would have been at work anyway.. I just kinda need sleep. Tim is going out of town this weekend for something with Mcnair so I think I am going to go to Ardmore to visit because I miss my familia so much and I dont wanna sleep at the house alone.. (lame I know) haha I didnt really do much today.. except work and I had TWO tests.. gag me. I feel like I kinda neglected one of them for the other so hopefully my grade doesnt reflect that lol.. At work I didnt do much except work on some stuff for class.. then I rushed around after I got off to get some strawberries and chocolate to make chocolate covered strawberries and I got Tim some candy and a card since he ALWAYS complains of me eating his lol.. I then went to get him a ballon because I didnt wanna waste money on getting him a flower or something lol When we got home we laid down and took a nap because we were both exhausted.. exciting I know. haha then I cooked dinner-- one of those Bertoli things.. it was super good actually. We then proceded to do homework and I watched some shows online.. nothing big. I NEEd to clean my house.. Im anal about clutter and its definitely that so I might do that soon. Anywho, Im just rambling and boring so ill post some other time.. LOVE YOU ALL!=) Happy Valentine's day.. offically.

Bailee

V day and Amber's birthday parttttay!

Ahhh.. Oh my goodness. So first of all, I was laying here taking a break from studying watching the end of teen mom on the computer minding my own business and all of a sudden a HUGE spider crawls out of no where like right by my face!! At first I was like okay its one of those hoppy spider cricket looking things but NO it was a real spider it looked muscular and it was brown!! MY goodness I JETTED out of bed! I was planning on trying to kill it myself but it was wayyy too intimidating.. like normally im not scared of spiders but this one was a bit ridculous..  so I called Tim in here and before he came in he was like oh whatever its probably just a little spider.. then he got in here and was like you were right.. it is a big spider lol! So we strategized and were gonna spray it with poison but for one we didnt want it to get on my pillow or my side of the bed and for two,  we didnt think that would be a quick enough death.. like it may have ran off somewhere so Tim decided to be heroic and hit it.. which is no easy matter on a soft surface like a pillow and this thing was quick! Well he goes in for the kill and............... HITS it!! but then immediately jumps back and screams like a girl lol!! I wish I would have gotten that moment on camera=) good times.. excluding the fact that I am now paranoid to go to sleep for fear that its mate may come looking for it.. ekkk! Alright now to my day and yesterday since I didnt write, Yesterday was a good day. I went to class till about two then Tim and I came home and took a short nap before going to the hotel for our early Valentines day=) We had to drop Typ off at Chanoas first and she was soo scared.. poor baby.. she hardly left here little corner.. I felt bad for her and Chanoa said it was depressing. lol She was shakin so bad and did not want me to leave.. I hate leaving my little baby girl!!! Anywho, the hotel was fun! I loved being able to watch some cable tv lol I know that sounds corny but when you dont have it you appreciate it more haha later on that night we went to eat at beverly's waffle house which was GOOD..then went back to the hotel and basically watched tv while Tim did some necessary homework and I slowly drifted off to dream land.. It was a good night.. we planned on getting up early to partake of the free breakfast but the bed was SOO comfy we didnt get a chance to.. lol we woke up at like 11 or so and took showers and checked out at 12..after that we went to the mall and that was basically it with that.. We then came home and went to pick up Typ.. she came out of her shell a little when we got there and started playing and drinking gobs of water haha.. At about 6, we went to Amber's birthday party!! It was super fun! We basically just sat around and talked for a long time then ate.. yummy.. we did play one half game of pictionary though! That was fun too.. so overall a good night.. although Ancy wanted to leave like super early but us slackers held her hostage until like 10 haha Tim and I left shortly after Anc did and I came home and started studying shortly after.. I got a good hour and a half in before I became bored lol.. I did eat something AGAIN that made me have an allergic reaction except im not quite sure what it was this time.. something healthy I think lol.. I think im just allergic to healthy foods? haha bad. but my mouth started tingly which is a KEY indicator that Im allergic to something.. I stopped eating after that.. but my other symptoms have a slow onset so it took about 2 hrs for me to start feeling like jittery and my stomach to start hurting.. but my tummy hurts pretty bad.. Im just glad it wasnt a reaction like before.. but I would sure like to know what caused it!! Thats all I got for tonight though.. Sorry Im posting this after tweleve.. whoops.. but I still consider this the same day because I havent gone to sleep yet! lol Well goodnight world!

LOVE Bailee

Love.

Yet again, not much to say. Im sure people that actually read this are probably like geez this is so boring lol. but anyways, I basically slept all day. I didnt have clinical today due to it being my "day off" from ob clinical so I slept. I was planning on waking up and going in to work so I could get some extra hours because we missed so many days last week but that just didnt sound appealing as I was laying in bed! haha So i didnt go to work when I should have.. but I did get some laundry done and wash some dishes.. I also watched a couple tv shows and studied some.. GO ME. seriously I started studying for a test more than the night before.. I dont remember the last time that happened.. really! haha. So I studied some while Tim was at work then when he got here I made dinner while he washed the rest of the dishes and watched basketball online.. It was actually his night to make dinner but I knew he didnt really know how to make it and I didnt feel like explaining it to him lol soo I made it. I made baked ziti.. its soooo good! I love it and its very simple to make.. plus I added a slightly healthier spin on it and make it with turkey meat =).. I tried to get Tim to put his computer up for dinner and I literally had to pry it out of his hands because the game was in the fourth quarter.. and he says " you dont stop watching a game in the fourth quarter" haha like I care.. but he muted it and left it in the living room and just glanced over a little.. so I would say that was a decent compromise! After dinner I began studying again.. after watching greys of course! Im a studying machine.. plus i enjoy studying OB though! I also took out a little time to book Tim and I a hotel room for tomorrow to celebrate our early valentine's day! Its our first one married so we wanted to do something a little more special=) It should be fun! Im excited its good to just get away from the house sometime! Now I am sitting here about to do this ati book questions and go to bed shortly! Love you all.

Bailee!

=)

Not much to say. I should be sleeping.. or being productive! Its super late and I havent done any homework.. why am I SOOO not productive on snow days?! ughh its quite annoying.. Plus Friday Tim and I plan to do something for valentines day and saturday we are going to Ambers birthday party in the evening.. which leaves not much studying time.. GR. I have tomorrow off for clinical but i really plan on working tomorrow to try to make up at least SOME hours I missed due to the stupid snow. Like yes I love missing class but I do not like having to make up a thousand clinicals or tests and I want MONEY and I cant work if the school is closed.. hmph. bad thing about working for the school but I do LOVe my job. Anywho, My day wasnt to exciting.. Tim and I slept for a long time today.. and play argued about who was gonna make breakfast lol.. neither of us did though.. we both ate cereal and he ate some ramen! Then Tim took ANOTHER nap shortly after lol he was a sleepy head.. while I lolly gagged on the computer and cleaned a little. We were gonna eat dinner at home but Dre from the church was having his birthday dinner so we went to BWW and ate and fellowshiped! We then came home and talked for an hour or two while I should have been studying and NOW he is doing his homework in the kitchen I think and I am sitting here writing this and probably about to go to bed so I can get up early and hopefully go in to work! That is all I got for now.. sorry these things are so boring but some days I just dont feel like being productive and thinking of something clever to say lol.. and NO I did not forget about posting a picture a day.. for the most part I have been taking them.. just lazy on posting them.. but SOON. Lovee you all!

bAiLee

Cram session.

Well.. I know I have been missing days lately but I have just been sooo busy! Yesterday I couldnt post because I was studyin or more like crammin for my exam today.. Amber and I stayed at Denneys till almost 4 once again.. sigh. We can NOT study together lol we pretty much just talk till its really time to focus.. which is usually at like 1 am.. not a good habit to have! On a positive note, I made an 87.. which is almost exactly what I made on my OB exam? and most people I talked to made about the same grade they made on the OB exam.. I dont get that! There must be some sort of correlation or something.. I wonder what it is! Anywho, on another good note, school is cancelled tomorrow!! YAHHHOO! That is super exciting to me because I have test.. and simulation. Im slightly not exciting about making up the test on Monday though because that is when my second OB exam is! eww. Two tests in one day... ugh. and im sure we will have to make up sim too... which I am also not looking forward to considering I HATE sim! We are going to get some supplies for the house after work tonight so that should be good. We also gotta get Typ some dog food and such though.. The bad weather shouldnt be coming in till later though so I think we are good! I am SO tired.. I got approximately 3 hrs of sleep last night and I am wooorn. I gotta stop doing this to myself... seriously. I WILL study in ADVANCE for the next test! haha Im speaking it and declaring it right now! I cant wait till I get home to my wonderful bed though.. well not so wonderful bed actually its a horrible mattress.. but my bed nonetheless. I wish this weather would clear up so we can go get our new bed.. not new but new to us! Im not sure what I plan to do the rest of the night but I think its gonna have something to do with a little cooking, a little tv shows, and a LOT of resting/sleeping! Sounds like a perfect plan to me! Well folks.. thats all I got right now..

LOVE Bailee

rant.

This is sort of a ranting post. Just some things I have been noticing lately. What happened to respect?.. to compassion.. kindness.. genuiness? It seems like its been lost.. I just see a lot of fake things. If everyone could just be real with one another wouldnt things be so much better. I guess once you lose those qualities stated previously.. whether it be towards another person, or a situation.. you really dont have much at all and it shows. Dont expect something that you dont give yourself.. is something I definitely have been learning. When reality slaps you in the face, and shows you how things really are.. it hurts. Onto another note, went to church today. took a nap. ate a little food. studied/still studying for a test and quiz coming up. Boring day for the most part, but very revealing day to say the least. Goodnight.

Love Me.

Anniversary

I dont think I posted yesterday. I was super tired though so I didnt feel like posting.. I have this bad habit of posting really late or actually not posting because its really late! haha. I almost fell asleep watching this documentary called Babies.. It was very interesting watching the different ways different cultures raise their children! oh oh I got a funny story lol.. well if you actually know me then you know how clumsy I am!.. well I was bragging to Tim yesterday about how I only fell one whole time during my ventures outside during all the snow.. well we got home from target and not two seconds after I got out the car I fell in the biggest pile of snow around our house lol!! I must admit it was funny although I was upset bc I was cold.. and I got snow in my purse!! Gr... anywho, yesterday was a boring day for the most part like my entire week has been. BAsically just sat in the house all day.. which could be a bad thing bc since this snow storm thing happened i have been laying in bed and my mattress stinks so my back has been hurting BAD! I cant wait till we get a new mattress bc Tim has been griping about having to give me a back massage 3 or 4 times a day.. hmph=( Today was our 8th month anniversary of being married.. It was a pretty fun day. We slept alot and eventually got out around 5. We got out and went to get some rain boots which we have both been really needing! We then went to the dollar movie to see Megamind.. It was pretty fun.. after that we went to Chili's to eat.. YUM! So it was a rather good day! I did a little homework when we got home.. which I need to be doing more of! Gah tomorrow I have GOT to settle down and study study study I have a quiz monday, test tuesday, and a test and simulation for med surg on wednesday! AHH I think I have success on friday too so its gonna be a busy week! That is all!!

LOVE Bailee

My nose hurts!

Man, I really dont like writing these when I have extremely boring days, but I told myself that I would try to write one everyday. Currently, I am working on a little homework which I should have been working on during the 3 days that we had off for snow days? I dont understand that.. I wait till the day that I have school the next day to work on my homework! lol sigh.. I really need to step my game up.. I always like to do things at the most inconvient times! I am super happy that the weekend it almost here though=) I only have one class tomorrow too so Im suuupa excited about that!! I really need to start working on some more OB stuff though.. esh.. that class is coming to an end shortly and I need to step my game up so I can make an A! Today was a pretty boring day.. woke up around 11 and basically sat around like the past 2 days. We did venture out to go to Flatire for dinner though.. which was good but not as good as I hoped it would be. UCO is open tomorrow and I think that is outrageous.. I mean most of our school is commuters! The roads are still BAD and will probably refreeze tonight! They are completely ridiculous but can always count on good ol uco to do the exact opposite of whats best for their students lol ahh well! Be in prayer for the students traveling to class tomorrow though.. because the roads are not fit! Anywho, I guess I better get back to doing this Med surg and look over some OB stuff bc my luck we would have a quiz tomorrow lol! Goodnight=)

LOVE Bailee

Cold Night

Good day today. Boring day but nevertheless, good. We had another snow day today which was night because all I did was lay in bed for most of the day and if I wasnt laying in bed I wasnt doing much of anything productive! I just realized that today is Tim and I's 8 month anniversary=) aww. ohh married life.. its a beautiful rollercoaster lol.. I love it! We went outside for a little bit today to start our car up for a while to warm it up and such.. not like we could go anywhere even if we wanted to due to the fact that there is a huge pile of snow behind the car! I walked to Christians earlier because I was bored and I fell once and almost fell approximately 5 times on the way there then on the way back I almost fell about 4 times haha good times! That was basically the just of my day.. I did talk to Amber on  the phone a couple times pretty much about nothing just to talk bc we were both super bored!! lol Im getting cabin fevvva! We have another snow day tomorrow as well and I am determined to use tomorrow to at least pick up a book.. I HOPE! I need to baddd my next Ob test is real soon and I dont need to get behind like last time and cram for like 7 hours the night before.. that was no bueno! Anyway, I plan on trying to find a tech job at one of the hospitals to get my foot in the door! I wanna do the Mercy externship but you have to work 40 hrs a week and with Mcnair I dont think Ill be able to do that! So Im looking around for other options I wish OU would put some nurse partner positions in labor and delivery up that would be awesome! =) Now I am just babbling. Continue to pray for me though yall I could always use it.. also for our hot water pipe because we NEED hot water especially due to the fact that we took 'baths" out of pans full of hot water tonight lol but hey at least we got clean! Goodnight!!

LOVE B

Snow day.

I didnt feel like blogging yesterday bc I kinda forgot till it got late then all I wanted to do was slllleeep so yeah. I went to class and worked a little yesterday..nothing too productive. Also, I watched demo, chanoa and chris' pup, for them for a little while. It was cool I guess.. Typ and Demo did not get a long very well but they kinda started to not annoy each other so much after a while haha.. It was nice having a little pup around for a while but Im glad we got to send it home lol they are toooo much work! Chanoa came to pick him up after she got off work which was right before the snow storm hit.. she didnt leave till it started sleeting pretty bad but she made it home safely!! Brit invited us to come over and get snowed in with her, ethan, and her roommate but I figured that would be entirely too many people in a one bedroom apartment for who knows how many days.. So we opted out and stayed here! We woke up around eleven and have pretty much just been laying around all day. I only went outside to try to take Typ out who was NOT having it for the longest time. She didnt go to the bathroom till literally like 9 pm lol even then when she went out she was eager to come back in! I tried to go out my front door only to find a 2-3 ft snow drift on my porch lol..needless to say we definitely cant go out that door! haha I wish I would have been more productive today seeing as how I saw a ton of people from my nursing class facebook status' saying they were doing all this homework catching up.. sigh I felt like a slacker, then continued to slack... haha! For dinner tonight I made potato soup and chocolate snow ice cream!! YUUUMM It was delicious as usual=) I really wasnt gonna cook, but I decided to about 9 lol so we had a late dinner. On a side note, lately I have been just trying to remind myself that sometimes good things fall apart so better things fall together. I really just have a big issue of letting things go especially things that I deem to be beneficial to me even if they arent good for me to hold on to. This probably makes no sense to most people lol but I guess you would just have to be me. Anyway, If you are reading this, be in prayer for me on that.. its really important to me that I just let go and realize that things change. Back to my original post haha, It really was a wonderful snow day and such a blessing because I felt like I really needed that break even though we havent been in school too long yet! School is also cancelled for tomorrow, and I am slightly hoping that it will be cancelled Thursday as well!! Heck why not all the way till Monday haha.. that'd be nice! Welp.. thats all I got.. Toodles!

Love B

Slacker.

Sorry I have been slacking in my blogging lately. I really dont have an excuse but I guess I can kinda throw something out there.. I have 1.been super busy lately 2. been really exhausted as well! I cant remember what I last blogged about because that blog was definitely a blur haha I was pretty much falling asleep while typing.. It was a super busy and exhausting week. My mom and other family came to visit on Friday and some of them stayed till Saturday to go to a funeral.. the funeral was good. I mean as good as a funeral can be I suppose. It was uplifting and good to know that she died in the hands of the Lord. Just reminds me that God has a plan and a purpose for each of our lives and even if they dont work out exactly how WE think they should God knows best. Also, It doesnt matter how old we are in the natural God can take us when he sees fit.. we are not promised tomorrow so live every day, every moment like its the last. My mom stayed the night with us on Friday night. It was really good to have her here.. I missed her=( and I always love spending time with the family. They left them around 3 pm or so that Saturday and came home to feed my wonderful Tim! He had just woken up lol ohh Tim.. he said  he needed his rest haha. We didnt do much that night except I took a 3 hr long nap, woke up, we went to get some subway with the giftcard my aunt and uncle gave him, and I got pink swirls. We came home and watched some of the second Narnia since I have never seen it and we wanna watch the third one together.. around 11 I started getting super tired though so we turned it off and I feel asleep shortly after that.. I guess I really needed the rest and am actually rather tired right now and its pretty early for me! Oh, I forgot my aunt and uncle sent me a new purse from Sam Moon in the mail which I received in the mail on Friday.. I LOVE it.. Its pink with a huge flower on it=) Its actually identical to the one she has lol.. I saw her wearing it one day and thought it was really cute so she said she would get me one next time she went there and she did but of course not without buying her another one except in purple lol.. Women and their accessories! haha This morning I did not want to get up early because I havent gotten to sleep in at all this week which is annoying for me because if you know me you know how much I LOVE my sleep.. but I got up and got dressed to go to church.. Church was good today, but it was COLLLD.. I truly Thank God for HEAT! lol We didnt get out of church till about 3 and home till about 4 since we stopped at the AT&T store to get me a charger for the phone Chanoa and Chris let me borrow since my is on its last leg. We came home and ended up taking a nap for a little bit.. I woke up before Tim whom sleep like 5 hrs haha.. I have just been doing homework and studying for my quiz tomorrow. I am PRAYING that we dont have class on Tuesday because I have a test in Med surg that I really dont wanna take.. Sigh. I know want it to ice over but I just really want my snow day lol tomorrow I plan on stockin up on somethings for the house before the storm hits to we are prepared.. Im hoping the electricity doesnt go out though!! That would NOT be good since our heat is powered off electricity! So lets pray that it doesnt get that bad.. Hallejuah! haha Welp i guess thats all.. Chow!

LOVE Bailee

Ahhhhh.

wellll. I am kinda tired but since I didnt post yesterday due to the MASSIVe amount of studying and clinical..ing? I did yesterday I failed to post.. So Im gonna try to sum up my day yesterday and today! welp yesterday, went to clinical which I REAAAAAAAALLLY enjoyed ahh like I have always thought I wanted to be a labor nurse but Im pretty sure I really do now!! My nurse was really cool and helpful and although I didnt get to see a delivery (yet) I had a lot of fun! I got to see a surgery and an inversion which was soo cool bc there was a low chance that the baby would actually move since the mother was so far a long in the pregnancy but SHE DID! I was soo happy for the mom because they wanted it soo bad and they were very close to being like the cutest married couple I have ever seen in my life lol I was so excited for them I wanted to.. cry? haha Anywho, Im hoping to to see more things especially a deliver when I go back! After clinical, I hurriedly had rebecca take me to Teds to eat with McNair.. when I got there they were pretty much done and leaving but I ordered Tim something while he was on his way from work and when he got their we just sat down, ate, and chit chatted about our day.. After leaving there, we went to petco to get typ some worm medicine.. I mean it cant hurt her to treat her for worms even if they arent the cause of her recent weird problems lol. We looked at the farretts while we were there and I want one soooo bad!! they are just cute and cuddly looking.. with sharp teeth.. haha Tim also wants a little parakeet so he can teach it how to talk lol.. Good luck with that! After all this, my intense study session started with Amber at all about cha which consisted of chit chat and studying.. when cha closed, we went to Dennys and we stayed till almost four am.. Talk about a gripy and delirious Bailee lol.. I mean I had been up since five thirty the previous morning!! We did have some good laughs though! haha The first OB exam we much better than I thought it would with my score being an 87!! YaHOO! I mean of course I wanted an A but I thought I did much worse so I can complain at all about my high B and that definitely puts me in a good position to get an A in the course at the end of it! The exam was super hard to me though and I felt like I studied but nothing I studied was actually on the test?! well maybe not nothing but not alot! Anywho, after the test Tim came and picked me up and we came home.. eventually he took a nap and I washed dishes because my family is here! Well some of them! At around 5, I took Tim somewhere so he could go minister at a juvenille facility.. then pretty much sat around and cleaned and such till he got back.. I went to get him, we got food,, and came back home to meet my family here! They got to see the house and they said they thought it was really cute so thats a plus=)My mom is staying the night with us so I talked to her for a while before bed and now Tim and I are in bed and I am about to go to SLEEP bc I am SO tired and I can barely keep my eyes open.. so more later!!

LOVE B